SANTA CRUZ, CALIFORNIA

Luminous Heart


Sacred Mountain Ceremonies

A private retreat for maximum depth with Curandero Adam Wilder, and his beloved wife Olivia in their beautiful home in California. Offered year-round.

Welcome

Sacred Mountain private ceremonies are an intimate ayahuasca retreat for serious practitioners ready to do the deep work on their spiritual, healing and self-growth journey. 

 By booking a private retreat, you get maximum attention and customization of your experience for you and up to 3 of your friends or loved ones, with dates found to accommodate your schedule. 

 Held in Adam and Olivia’s beautiful home nestled in the tranquil mountains of coastal California, this 2-night, 3-day container is designed for sincere seekers who feel the pull toward real inner change and transformation. 

 Rooted in Ayahuasca lineage through Athena Naia’s blessing, Zen Lineage and Rose Mysteries, this retreat brings together three powerful streams of wisdom and healing. 

 By booking a private retreat, you will be held in loving support in a strong container that’s here just for you.

The Offering

The Luminous Heart is a 2-night, 3-day private retreat that includes two nights of Ayahuasca ceremony and guided integration. 
 
This is a highly intimate container for 1-4 individuals who wish to work closely with two seasoned practitioners in a deeply held, trauma-informed and spiritually-rich space.

  • Preparation. You’ll have 1–2 preparation calls to clarify your intentions, review any mental health or physical considerations, and establish the emotional and nervous-system groundwork needed for this level of deep healing. Olivia’s training in counseling psychology, trauma work, embodiment, and psychedelic integration informs the way your inner landscape is prepared and tended to. Adam's background as an ordained Zen Monk and Curandero will inform his prayers, guided meditations, and energetic preparations for you.

  •  Ceremony. You will sit in two ceremonies held by the lineage of the Shipibo curanderas in the Ucayali region of the Amazon jungle. Ceremonies will be infused with Adam’s Zen training rooted in bringing deep spiritual practice into every day life as well as Olivia’s Rose Mystery devotion connecting you to the depth of love available all around us and finding the beauty in the whole human experience. Ceremonies with Adam and Olivia tune your energetic and physical bodies to call in ancestral blessings and clearings that ground and align you to show up with more love and presence in your life.

  •  Integration. You’ll have on-site integration sessions around ceremonies plus a follow-up integration session over Zoom, supporting you in meaning-making, and integrating insights into your relationships and daily rhythms. Practices may include meditation, parts work, somatic awareness, guided meditations and gentle body practices that help your system feel safe enough to truly open.

How We Hold The Medicine of Ayahuasca



Adam and Olivia serve ayahuasca with deep respect for Earth Temple’s teachings and the blessing they have received from Maestra Athena Naia to carry this medicine within her lineage. 

 Their combined backgrounds create a distinct offering that holds the Rose Mysteries, Zen Buddhism, and Ayahuasca together for a synergistic experience which is both grounded and expansive.

Adam | Zen Buddhism & the Way of Clear Seeing 
Adam’s path is steeped in Zen practice — years of meditation, inquiry, and learning to sit inside reality as it is. He is an ordained Zen monk and authorized Zen teacher who received transmission in the Light Lineage of the Buddha.
 
In ceremony, this shows up as a rare steadiness: a capacity to remain calm, present, and uncluttered, even when the internal landscape gets stormy. 

He holds space with quiet rigor and kindness, helping you to:

  • Stay anchored in breath and body 
  • Meet intense states without collapsing or bypassing 
  •  See through old stories and patterns with clarity, not judgment 
  • Rest in the part of you that is connected to the All
  • Draw in the power of your own lineages of ancestors, both genetic and spiritual



Olivia | Rose Mysteries, Trauma-Informed Depth Healing 
Olivia is a therapist, somatic coach, poet and herbalist. Her work is a blend of depth psychology, trauma-informed care, embodiment, and the mystical heart-path of the Rose.  

Through her therapy and coaching practice, she supports people in befriending their inner world: working with parts (IFS), nervous system regulation, and the “felt sense” of the body so that healing happens at a pace your system can actually integrate. 

Her Rose lineage work is a devotional relationship with Rose as a master plant teacher and living symbol of the heart’s path of the great Mother. She has walked this path through her own underworld initiations, and pilgrimages to sacred sites such as Crete and the Magdalen and Black Madonna sites of France. 

 In ceremony and integration, Olivia brings:  

  • Deep emotional attunement and gentle yet precise guidance 
  • Parts work, inner seasons, and mythic framing to help you understand your process 
  • Body-based practices and trauma-aware pacing to support safety and regulation 
  • Heart practices that allow you to open to both beauty and difficulty as sacred 
  • Nurturance as medicine, as seen through her lovingly prepared meals and deep listening


Together, Adam and Olivia create a field where your psyche is not pushed, or overwhelmed, but deeply met, held and invited into relaxing into its own natural unfolding.

What's Included

Within this private retreat

1–2 preparation calls with Adam & Olivia Support with intention setting, emotional preparation, and dieta / lifestyle guidelines 

Two nights of accommodations in their private California home sanctuary 

Two nights of ayahuasca ceremony in an intimate, lineage-rooted container 

Ayahuasca-friendly meals and snacks throughout your stay 

Daily meditation, grounding and mindfulness practices 

Rose-heart practices, mythic reflection, and somatic integration support 

A full integration day on-site after ceremony 

Follow-up integration calls with Adam & Olivia after you return home 

Ongoing support via private messaging for a set period after your retreat 

Trauma-informed, nervous-system-aware care throughout the process 

A deeply nonjudgmental, compassionate space where all of you is welcome

 ** travel is not included

Your Space Holders

ADAM WILDER 


In addition to being an Curandero who received the blessing to serve from Athena, Adam is also an ordained Zen monk who received transmission in the Light Lineage of the Buddha and is an authorized Zen teacher. He is also an accomplished videographer, working with light in everything he does.

He effortlessly weaves his plant medicine and Zen lineages in a way that is simultaneously vibrant and grounded.  Adam’s devotion to his practice can be felt through his Icaros, guided meditations and healing modalities that he channels. 

In addition to private and group sits, Adam is available for shamanic tune-ups, remote dietas and meditation support.


OLIVIA WILDER


Olivia is a somatic coach, herbalist and poet and the founder of The Essential Self. She has traveled through many dark passages of trauma recovery and in so doing has come to have an intimacy with the roots of healing and an embodied approach to spirituality. 

Her expertise is in working with people to befriend themselves, find their own inner wisdom, and feel more vibrantly alive in their bodies. She makes all who work with her feel deeply cared for, held and seen. 

Olivia is available for therapy and coaching including preparation and integration sessions to help you receive the most benefit from your medicine practice as well as ongoing psychological and spiritual support

FAQ

Our most commonly asked questions. Please reach out to spaceholder directly if you have any other inquiries: olivia@theessentialself.org

  • Where is this offering located?
    The retreat is held in Adam and Olivia’s private home in Northern California. The exact location and directions are provided after booking.
  • Is this suitable for someone new to ayahuasca?
    Yes, if there is a clear call and no medical contraindications. The container is intentionally small and includes robust preparation and integration, which is particularly supportive for first-time drinkers.
  • Do I need prior meditation or spiritual experience?
    No specific background is required. Adam and Olivia will meet you where you are and offer practices that are accessible wherever you are at on your journey.
  • What ayahuasca lineage do you work with?
    Adam and Olivia serve within the lineage of their teacher, Curandera Athena Naia, who carries the Shipibo Mahua lineage of the Peruvian Amazon. Athena has spent over 15 years immersed in traditional healing and shamanic arts.

    Athena trained for many years in the Shipibo Mahua lineage, and has learned under Shipibo maestras such as Maestra Amelia Ronen and Maestra Manuela Mahua.

    Adam and Olivia carry this lineage with immense respect, having received Athena’s blessing to serve ayahuasca within the integrity, safety, and ceremonial frameworks she upholds.

    Their offering honors the Shipibo traditions while integrating their own paths of Zen Buddhism, trauma-informed care, and the Rose mysteries.
  • Are there any dietary restrictions?
    Preparing for Ayahuasca does require a monastic lifestyle that includes adjustments to ones spiritual, psychological, and physical habits.

    Removing certain foods and habits is to become more attuned to the subtle energy field of life, and the teachings of a particular plant teacher to support you and those around you in your life.

    This includes a particular list of foods to eliminate from your diet, as well as certain consumptive patterns and exposures to avoid such as alcohol, drugs, porn, sex, masturbation, pork, beef, dairy, coffee, sugars, oils, salt etc.

    Upon registering, you will receive a detailed guideline for your dieta preparation protocol. You can always reach out to your space holders directly with clarification questions.
  • What is the preparation like?
    You’ll have 1–2 prep calls to explore intentions, personal history, and any health concerns. You’ll also receive guidance on dieta, emotional preparation, and how to support your nervous system before ceremony.
  • What does integration support look like?
    After the retreat, you’ll have scheduled integration calls with Adam and Olivia to unpack your experience, understand insights, and translate them into real-life changes. You’ll also have a window of time for private messaging support for questions or wobblier moments.
  • Are there any medical or psychological contraindications?
    Yes. Certain medications, heart conditions, and psychiatric diagnoses may be contraindicated with ayahuasca. This is always reviewed in detail during the intake and preparation process. If needed, they may consult with your existing care providers or refer you to alternative support.
  • Can couples attend together?
    Yes. Couples often find that sitting together allows old patterns to surface in a context where they can be lovingly worked through, with support, rather than acted out.
  • How do I apply or book?
    To secure your booking, completing payment through this page will rescure your spot. You will receive an email from Adam & Olivia with an intake form, and instruction to schedule your introduction and preparation calls. In these calls you will together schedule when the private retreat will take place based on both of your availabilities.
  • What is your refund policy?
    If any contraindications arise during your intake process, you will receive a full refund. In the case of last-minute illness or genuine emergency, we’re happy to reschedule your retreat at no additional cost. Otherwise, all bookings are non-refundable.

    If anything comes up before your retreat, please reach out. We’re here to support you and will work with you to find a solution that feels aligned and considerate of your circumstances.
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Private Ayahuasca Retreat2-nights
Price is per person
in USD
$1100

This Includes:

2 nights of ayahuasca ceremony in an intimate, lineage-rooted container 

2 nights of accommodations in their private California home sanctuary 

1–2 preparation calls with Adam & Olivia 

Organic ayahuasca-friendly meals and snacks throughout your stay 

Integration on-site after ceremony 

Follow-up integration calls with Adam & Olivia after you return home 

Ongoing support via private messaging for a set period after your retreat 

Trauma-informed support, somatic integration, and meditation practices throughout guided by healing wisdom of Zen, Rose Mysteries, and Ayahuasca.


  • Total payment
  • 1xSacred Mountain Ceremonies: Private Retreat$1100
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All prices in USD